I think my depression boils down to one key aspect: loneliness. I have found that anytime I am around friends I am fine, but as soon as I leave their presence, I seem to lapse back into the dark, murky depths of my deepest fears. Last night, as an example, a group of us had planned to play a game of Civilization 5 over the internet. I unfortunately lagged a significant amount until I lost the connection permanently. But I didn't lose the Skype call. I couldnt bring myself to end the call, so I instead listened to my friends playing without me on and off throughout the evening. Probably not my finest moment.